well it's been a year.

oh 2021 and 2022. 

Let's see how did the rest of 2021 go? shitty. Cari got covid. Cari died. stupid anti-vax microchips in the vaccine non-sense. how mad am I about that? big mad. I literally cannot even talk to her husband. it's been months. I blame him for that non-sense and her for being a grown ass woman being dumb. 

Week after we came home from the funeral, Max got diagnosed with a pretty aggressive cancer. he died February 16th. I can't even believe that little man is gone. he had a good long happy life. And Roscoe is just living his best life as an only dog. We're currently on a waitlist for a dachshund puppy. I'm not sure that I'm ready to be a puppy mom again. but we're going to give a go!

Tom and I bought got covid. Not two weeks after he had to go back to class in person. While we don't know that he got it there and brought it home, it certainly is the most likely place of contamination. I'm not gonna lie you guys, the first thing I did when I tested positive is call the Crazy Lady and say "I don't want to die." Luckily both Tom and I are vaccinated and boosted and we were super mild, honestly I had one day of not feeling great, but Tom didn't even have a really bad day. I had bronchitis in January, and went to urgent care twice. Bronchitis was 10x worse than Covid. My doctors were spot on and I was able to get antibodies and antiviral drugs. 

So yeah... it's been rough. So much so that I've been on the struggle bus. Like none of my hobbies no joy, just depression. And Max really hit me hard. that was sort of icing on the cake of a shit show ya know. 

For spring break, Tom, Roscoe and I went up to the mountains and stayed in a cabin. The peace and calmness was just what I needed. I came back so relaxed and rejuvenated. I cleaned the house, and I feel like some of the funk just sort of eased away. I've caught myself still tearing up every now and then but it's much better than it was and i was able to get rid of some of Maxwell's toys. 

Roscoe really took to the mountains. like we didn't even have to have him on a leash most of the time. which was really surprising. he also really liked the river and jumping in it (not too deep) and drinking out of it. Even though it was ridiculously cold. We'll probably go back in the summer. It was not too far and not too out of the middle of no where. 

As far as knitting and all my hobbies. abandoned. I didn't knit basically from October til now and I'm still struggling. I'm trying though.  I was just in the muck.